it's really hard for me to be doing this right now..... just because of other things. but i just have to push those feelings aside right now, and get thru this. i want to make it the best ever. and i just hope it gets appreciated.

in less than 2 weeks..... i won't be sitting in this room anymore. i'll be off to a place 2 hours away from here....(hopefully, if my transcript gets sent to the university sometime soon.) so will i miss home? as of now, no. i won't.. just because i need to get away from this place for a while.. but sooner or later i probably will. i'm sorry to those who wanted me to tryout for ball, but im not. a small part of me says yes..... but a bigger part of me says no. not because im scared i won't make the team, it's just because... well..... i really don't have an explanation.. it's just this gut feeling i have. the practice schedule is crazy... and ive been walking on an injured quad muscle since qualifiers, and every time i run, it feels like something is ripping. so that's it. no university ball for first year. but trust me, watch out for me in second year baby.

what a week.... this week of tennis has flown by soooo quickly. i gotta admit.. i didn't have much interest in women's tennis..... but after this week, i won't be watching just the men's draw for the US open. i've met some great people and made many new friends. i also got the chance to meet justine henin-hardenne (TWICE), barbara schett, and mary pierce. ooh. and i got a free towel from someone.. but i dont remember who. hehe. volunteer party tonight was great..... the food was very good...... haha.... i think i had too much food! sneaking pictures of adam was fun... haha and of course i love my me and paul picture. our supervisors are hot!!! (haha besides brad.
it was ang's surprise party last night... and we got her good! HAHAHAH. trailer schhhhhhhmailer. lol. i hope u had a great time angie poo. :)

HEHEHE.. PAULY!!!!!!! :)

Number 48-52 REVISED.

People:
48. makes you laugh the most: lukey
49. makes you smile the most: pukester
50. has a crush on you: uh.. dunno ...PUKEY? haha
51. gives you a funny feeling: PUKES
52. turns you on: mmmm luuuuuuuuke. HAHAHA

does that make u feel better now? lol.....

stolen from markie and marco!!! its my turn.

1. name: jackie
2. nicknames: jaxs, wacks, wackie, JC, yackers
3. location: toronto, canada
4. sex: female
5. marital status: single...
6. birthday: 08/01/84 .. woohoo! LEGAL!
7. piercings: my ears, although i never wear earrings.
8. tattoos: none
9. height: 5'4 and a half? maybe 5'5?
10. shoe size: 7.5
11. hair color: black
12. length: loooong
13. eye color: brown
14. pets: um. my 6 fishes which i'm surprised are still alive.

Most recent:
15. movie you rented: how to lose a guy in 10 days
16. movie you bought: say it isn't so. lol.
17. song you listened to: if you're not the one.. daniel bedingfield
18. song you had stuck in your head: if i could walk 500 hundred miles...
19. person you've called: moopoo.. but i did text markie.
20. person that called you: moopoo again.
21. tv show you've watched: tennis masters..... YAY ANDY.
22. movie you've watched: how to lose a guy..
23. person you were thinking of: uh luke? that's only cause im talking to him right now.
24. person you hugged: chua
25. person you kissed: hmm.. chua butter on the cheeky.
26. person you went to eat out with: soupy, jeff, steph, penta, moo, ang, sean lennon, eric, evan, nikki and chua.
27. person you slow danced with: andrew at prom.
28. person you yelled at: the popo guy that i was talking to at the club.
29. person who made you laugh: the guy that was dancing like he was doing tai chi at the club.
30. person who made you smile: i dunno.
31. person who said they love you: my mom? hahhahhahhaha!

Best:
32. person to talk to: all my friends.
34. feeling: being loved most definitely...
35. thing in the world: love and family.
36. thing that happened to you today: i got to sleep in! hahah

People:
37. closest: ang and moo.
38. tallest: carrrrrrrrrlos.
39. shortest: soupy. haha
40. meanest: jess from baseball. damn u skunky.
41. nicest: adrienne
42 loudest: vanessa or keri or liz!
43. smartest: chris kim. hahaha
44. craziest: julia!
45. most violent: penta hit me twice today really hard.
46. best singer: julie! just like those good old bede days she's still got it!
47. best dresser: meeee hahahahaahaha.
48. makes you laugh the most: i dunno
49. makes you smile the most: i dunno again
50. has a crush on you: uh.. dunno (3 times in a row)
51. gives you a funny feeling: i dunno (haha 4 now!)
52. turns you on: ooooh. those abercrombie models......... MMMM

do:
53. you have a bf or gf: no
54. you wish you could live somewhere else: no i like it in canada.
55. you think about suicide: nope
56. you believe in online dating: haha.... ang, remember BROCK?
57. you want more piercings: maybe
58. you want more tattoos: maybe
59. you drink: sometimes. hahaha
60. you do drugs: uhh.. no.
61. you like cleaning: no
62. you write in cursive or print: both. it depends.
63. you carry a donor card: no

for or against:
64. long distance relationships: it could work......
65. using someone: against
66. suicide: against
67. killing people: against
68. teenage smoking: against
69. doing drugs: against
70. premarital sex: hmm.
71. driving drunk: against
72. Group sex: against

Favorite:
73. song: as of now, probably where is the love
74. thing to do: play baseball and sleep!!!
75. thing to talk about: anything...
76. sports: baseball! ooh. and tennis.
77. drinks: strawberry daquiris, or peach schnapps w/orange juice.
78. Deodorant: lady speed stick sporty fresh
79. holiday: Christmas

80. ever cried over a girl/ boy: yes
81. ever lied to someone: yes
82. ever been in a fist fight : no
83. first crush: ryan i think
84. first love: never been in love
85. most recent crush: does john mayer count?

What:
86. shampoo do you use: haha loreal kids!
87. are you scared of: trying out for the western softball team.
88. do you look for in a bf/gf?: the good qualities.
89. do you think is cool?: playing tennis like andy roddick.

Number:
90. of times I have had my heart broken: hmm.
91. of hearts I have broken: none i don't think....
92. of boys I have kissed: quite a few
93. How many porn flick I have seen: haha germany!
94. of continents I have lived in: 2
95. of drugs taken illegally: none
96. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friend: just a couple
97. of people I consider my enemies: hmmm...
98. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: hopefully many!
99. of cd's that I own: too many!
100. of things in my past that I regret: not realizing how stupid i was being.... and um........ yea. that's it.

ooh. here's one more fun one.

I'm somewhat excited for tennis this year, partly because liz told me that this year, our id card actually allows us to enter the marquee village (where all the players hang out). the only crappy thing is that it's the women this year. sigh! oh, by the way, i still have tennis tickets. tuesday and thursday morning ones. if anyone is interested, just leave a comment.

yea... baseball is over..... but here are some pics.

so this weekend could possibly be the last weekend i ever play rep ball again. it's kinda sad. i just don't know if i'll be up for playing more ball next year after my first year of university. apparently we're trying to get all the scarborough girls back together and make a team based in scarborough again... that would be so awesome because it would be the same girls i played with back in those unforgettable malvern days... sigh. but another reason for me to not play ball next summer is because i am actually considering going back to hong kong. i haven't been there in a long time either, and i do want to see all my family again. plus the great shopping. woohoo. im just dreading the 20 hour plane ride.

stupid western! GRR SOOO FREAKIN MAD.

wow, there's been so many birthdays lately that it doesn't even really seem like i'm celebrating my own. it almost seems as if i feel like i'm birthday-ed out. but anyways, 19!! holy smokes.... i can't believe it. it certainly doesn't feel like it. one more year and i'm not even a teenager anymore. and now i can legally drink. muahaha. yes!