the mix ups...
lol. i feel sooooo stupid. maybe i'm just not good with the names..... i dunno. but anyways, i was so embarrassed. his name is ADAM... not alan as i've been calling him for the past 3 days. *shut up my girlies* he's nice... and cute.... lol. but what if i only thought he was cute cause i was drunk but really he's mashed up? lol ok thats mean. but i just hope hes not. but i feel as if something is holding me back. like when he says we'll hang out before i go home for christmas, a part of me says... sure.. i'd love to. but another part of me is just wondering if this is such a good idea. maybe i'm afraid. maybe i hate boys..... i dont really know. but i wish i knew.

FUCK. my night is ruined.

jim bob's...
so last night started out with me being super bored... i tried to force myself to do work, but i just couldn't. i invited my friend katherine over... and we hung out and watched bend it like beckham. HAHAHAH. i love that movie..... "juicy juicy mangos..... HAHAHAH" anyways, then steph came over cause, well. she just NEEDED to come here, but as we signed her in, we realized that it might not have been such a good idea after and we freaked out in the foyer. lol. ANYWAYS, we played a bit of bubble bubble, and then katherine had to go. me and steph sat around, lol.. then "finding nemo" and then we decided that it was too boring to just bum around and we decided to go to jim bob's to get drunk. waited in line for 30 mins... and the guy in front of us who looked like stiffler started talking to me and steph and how he had a tumor in his eye. got up to the front of the line, and the bouncer asked for my id.. looked at it, then asked me for a second piece!! WHAT THE FUCK! that has never happened to me before.... is it because i look so much hotter than i did?!?? haha.. ok, lets not go there. anyways, i kinda enjoyed that he asked me for a second piece. finally got in.. and me and steph drank the night away. danced... and got picked up by boys. hehe.. especially when we went to the pita pit at 2:30am... HAHAHA. well that's it for my fun night.... tonight.. it's off to the DRINK!! (i think...)

blackout!
lol, i slept in again today....... oopsies. but anyways, i woke up to the sound of the elevator bell ringing non-stop. so i was thinking... what the hell, whos drunk on a THURSDAY MORNING?!?! so i turned around to check the time, but my alarm clock was broken. then it occured to me there was a power-outage. i didnt want to stay in bed anymore, so i was going to take a shower in the dark. but when i walked in, it was waaaaaaaaaay too dark. so i brought my flashlight... which didnt help much. but then finally i heard... "YAAAAAAAAAY!" from out in the halls.. and the power turned back on.

drunk in class...

-wednesday in kin, i sat beside this girl who had just been drinking because it was one of her floormates half birthday. i've never laughed so hard in class ever, watching her struggle to take down notes. yesterday, in physio, she asked to borrow my notes because she had no idea what she had wrote down.

-it felt like i was a little drunk in class yesterday morning.... instead of writing "blood flow" i ended up writing.. "blow flood" what the hell!!

-catch me if you can is a great movie.

-why did i wake up and find 2 chunks of popcorn in my bed?

-petrina is coming tonight! :D yay.

la discharge... LOL.
so today in my physiology tutorial, we were going over some muscle spindles stuff... there are these muscle spindles called Ia and II... we've been talking about these in class for a while now.. so we had a mini quiz to take and one of the the answers for a multiple choice question was... "muscle spindle Ia discharge". this boy jeff raised his hand, and asked our TA "why is the answer in french? what's "LA DISCHARGE"? the whole class CRACKED up... oh man.. what a stupid boy.
that was the highlight of my day..... besides that.. i ran into lots of ward people today. it was nice.

our addiction....

what a weekend..
as usual, we always end up just standing around in parking lots. when this first started, id just be bored outta my mind... now, i'm just used to it and i dont mind it as much. it's pretty much the same as sitting around in people's houses too, first it sucked. but now i love it.. bumming around with your friends is great. hung out at pentas friday afternoon until my parent got off work. after my great sushi dinner with my parents, i went out with jordy and kev, then met up with penta, moo and steph @ moos...... eventually we got kicked out, and then we migrated to jordy's parking lot. the boys got mad cause me and penta were telling secrets.... and finally when the boys decided to go somewhere, (actually i dont remember if they did or not) i had to leave cause it was pretty late... then i pretty much passed out when i got home.
saturday, i got my hair cut, while my mom went grocery shopping.... i ended up finishing before her, but she had my keys, so i was locked out in the cold for a long time. so i walked over to the bank and waited for my mom to come... then went to loblaws saw mike martins working in the bakery. teehee!!!!
hung out with moo, penta, jaxen and luke later that night. we played bust a move for 5 hours..... non stop........ from 9pm-2am.... well me and moo took a break.. but jaxen and penta..... well they kept on playing while me and moo went to wendy's for a late night snack. LOL. everyone is addicted to this game. i wonder who the next victim will be.........

that pretty much sums up my weekend, but aside from that..... i had this feeling all along.... the 2 weeks he was gone, was the 2 weeks he started talking to me cause his best friend left. everything from his recent breakup, to school stuff.... it just seemed pretty normal. then the phone started ringing.... not just once... but multiple times. i told him that it was not necessary to call, seeing it was long distance and all, but he insisted. and that's when i knew. and today, i was right. i can't help but feel bad because i dont feel the same, and because i know how HE feels since i'm the one that's always in his position... and i dont even know if he knows i know... his best friend told me... sigh..... boys. so complicated.

*this post has taken me over 3 hours... and now i'm finally done... kept getting sidetracked... sheesh.

last night was certainly interesting... it was wet/dry night at dv8 and i guess since i figured everyone was going, i might as well check it out. got pre drunk.... too much, too fast = bad idea. i had to sit down on the bus ride.... and when we got there, even with our VIP passes, we had to line up.... it wasn't even a line up.. it was a crowd of people smashed together..... felt like i was being molested. gross gross gross.. i have never seen ang's face so up close for such a long time. then one girl lost her devil horns. lol. but there was no way she would have ever found them cause no one could even bend down to search for anything. anyways, we finally got in like an hour and a half later........ and found soupy and jeff. everytime i see soupy, its always when she's drunk. lol. it's so funny though. i love it. there were creepy pedophiles in the club... creepy creepy!!!! we left around 1:30 cause we couldn't deal with the sweatyness of the club anymore. came back..... went to subway for subs..... i was hungry for one at first. but then when i came back to rez. i felt like shit so i just took a shower and went to bed.
that was my night at dv8. it definitely was not as great as the drink. i'll be back there for sure on the 15th!!! hopefully i'll be partying with penta and jordy and kev! :D

just finished laundry.
also finished my final term 1 tests.
time for a break.
going out tonight. PARTY.
stay in on halloween night studying for chem
going home next weekend. so excited.
labatt blue line is broken. sigh.
missing fun family dinner tonight... double sigh.
yes! he's in love with another girl.. can't make fun of me anymore! SCORE.