thank u moopoo for such a wonderful afternoon.... from softball.... to hunting for faceplates... to... 'following our noses' and ending up in the best place of the entire mall EVER! hahaha. upstairs was the greatest. and i can't wait till we do it again.......

wow..... it's so weird to see things kinda going back to normal. it's only been a week.... and today was the first day that we actually spoke to one another. of course i felt very awkward when i was around her.... i mean, how could i feel comfortable after knowing everything that we've said.... and that she's still mute and doesn't understand where we are coming from. eventually things will get back to normal... but in the sense that everything is forgotten, not resolved. but really.. this is not what i want. i want her to realize.... realize her actions... but i really doubt she will.

deadlines are once again approaching....... sigh..... i hate school. damn the stressfulness of school. and then the week after deadlines i'm off to germany/austria.... hopefully... we'll be going as long as the school board says it's safe to do so. in preparation for the trip, there's band practice everyday of the week... up till the trip... even on the P.A day. but after the trip, the music course is complete! woohoo... and hopefully i'll end up with a wicked average that will pull up my other shit averages.

right now i feel gross... i think it's the burger king..... i've had too much burger king in the past week.... i need a break from it. a long one. moopoo.. i think the milkshake just killed the bk-ness... i think that was the thing that made me feel supergross in the afternoon.

so i just looked outside, and my neigbour joe just walked across the street into someones house with a vacuum cleaner. so he mows our lawn, shovels our driveway, and vacuums other peoples houses! weeeeeeeeird

so i don't know how i feel......
am i relieved that everything was let out? i dunno.
things are going to be awkward, for sure. i mean... what's it going to be like from now on?
and like... honestly.. with after all that was said... how is it still possible that they still don't realize what they did...
im glad we did this together guys.... or else it would have honestly been waaaaaaaay too weird.

oh the brighter side....... i got new shoes today! YAAAAAAAAAAAY! SHOES!!!!!!! hahahaha!

how is it possible that someone could do something like that...
i mean... why does this always happen to them... and somehow, it ends up affecting me!
its a trap.... a trap i tell ya......... hmph!

i honestly don't know what to think.
in a sense, i kinda hoped that some things did not happen.....because now, i'm confused... really confused...... and i think my whole life has just been fucked up.
i wish i could have taken back some things i said..... and i wish that i was able to say some other things.
everything just flew by so fast... maybe i wasn't thinking when things happened....... i really don't know.
i need help. i need major help.

HEHEHE........ read up!

Hi McAlpine!
I'm in the process of filling out a Personal Information Form online for Queens, and I needed a reference.... so I hope it's ok that I'm putting you down as one because this form is kinda due tomorrow...... so basically... I'm putting you as my reference regardless of what you say. haha......
that's what you get for leaving me! just kidding... but i really hope you don't mind.
Thanks!
-Jackie

WWWHHHHAAAATTTT!!!!!!!
Of course I will be a reference for you!! Thank you for the honour...I will tell some great lies if I get the chance.
It was a wonderful delight to see you and the crew yesterday....Believe me...I truly miss you guys!!
Love,
McAlpine

i miss him so much. dammit...... damn you libermann!

i have just been asked to blog.. so this one is for you moopoo.
march break.... wow... i cant believe it's march break. time flies REALLY fast. soon enough.... april 11th will come along and haunt me. which is why i have been on a working rampage lately..... and i'm proud of myself for doing so. go me go!
so rep baseball has started.... and let me just say that right now, it feels like my arm weighs 1000 pounds. it hurts to lift. ouchie. and yesterday on my drive home.... i got lost and ended up in some weird forested area. funny thing was.. i realized i was lost, yet i continued to drive deeper into the forest and then i finally decided.. ok, that's enough.. u turn time. but then... the struggles came because the road was so narrow it took me like literally 10 minutes to turn the other way. i just kept bumping into snowbanks.
so i'm thinking of getting my belly pierced... seeing that everyone has been on this piercing spree lately...... think i should? i dunno. im scared. you see.. i'm scared for when baseball season comes around and then i have to slide... and i'll kill my stomach. not good. not good at all.. and knowing me... it would like rip open my stomach when i slide.
We visited McAlpine at Libermann today.... it was weird... really weird.... especially seeing him in a suit. His office was so different.. much smaller than the phys ed one..... and it was definitely not as homey as the phys ed one. I think it's so stupid that ms. adragna is leaving this week.. and that he could have fully stayed at ward. ARGH. stupid superintendent people. argh!
i think i need a break.......

sooo...they're back..
and it's been a hell of a week without them around.
a whole lot has happened in the past week, and im not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing
i guess i'll find out eventually.
but something tells me that i know what is going to happen............. :) or.. :(